This is Just the Beginning

Mon Nov 1, 2021  10:10am

Listening to Mozart. It brings me back to my early teen years when I’d spend hours in my room, writing, drawing, creating, much as I do today, with Mozart playing in the background. Some things just never change. Classical music helps me focus and center my thoughts. If I could only get myself in the habit of typing instead of handwriting (this was handwritten first). Yet I find handwriting allows me a direct flow of thought to pen that I just don’t get from typing. Call me old fashioned, but this is how my writing habit formed and as I said, some things never change. It’s my way of going back to a simpler time I guess. But I digress.

In this world where we are chained to our technology, a simple life is frowned upon, outdated, and foolish. I’m sure many would laugh at me for keeping “hard” copies of what I create, but as society as we know it, collapses, I’ll be the one laughing. It may be antiquated, but I like the tangibility of hard copies and I don’t trust the digital world fully, just too much room for manipulation in my opinion. This way, no one can dispute that this is my original work. It also ensures that my work is protected and if there is a question, I’ve got a hard copy as proof. 

I don’t claim to have the answers, just wisdom. I don’t claim expertise, but mere experience. I don’t know everything, but I’ve learned a lot. I am no more important than the next guy (or gal), but my life has value. I’m not better than any other, but I’m better than I used to be. I do not know why I was ‘chosen”, but I will do my best to live up to the challenge placed before me. To teach G-d’s Laws, I must know them. To live them, I must trust them. To praise them, I must witness their TRUTH.

See, for me, this is not a choice. For if I had to chose, I’d still be married to an amazing man who is strong in himself, doing hair/changing lives, raising my son in the home we built, making good money, going out with friends, taking vacations and living a quiet, happy life. Instead, my marriage dissolved, I became a caregiver to my parents and lost nearly everything, including my awesome career, my home, stability, security, friends, you name it. The last 10 years has destroyed everything I ever knew.  

Now that I’m on the other side with a renewed sense of self and my own strength, I find it imperative to impart this wisdom I have gained. It is time to build my world into something that stands in the face of opposition. It is time to step up to the microphone, replace the charlatans that have been screaming way too loudly, and take control. It is time to SPEAK TRUTH, to Teach the RIGHT WAY to live and help transform this world into something which we can all be proud. 

To begin this process, one must first admit and commit to,

1. There is a G-d

2. G-d’s Word is TRUTH. 

3. To Love G-d with all your heart and Honor G-d’s TRUTH.

I can argue with the best of the atheists until the cows come home on this topic. For I have been in the presence of G-d multiple times and I don’t need to prove it to anyone. I am connected to the Upper Realms (some may call it Heaven, the Spirit Realm, the Universe, etc…) and can describe, at length, many places that exist there. I am in direct contact with Angels, Guides and the like. I have no physical evidence of this, but my experiences are clear and happened mostly while I was wide awake and of a clear mind.

So tell me, if there’s no G-d, and no afterlife, how do you explain past life regressions that have been researched and verified? How do you explain collective thought with no common connection or influence? How do you explain Greatness? Beauty? Love? How do you explain that though tens of thousands of people could have lost their lives on Sept. 11, 2001, less than 3,000 did. For one reason or another, they were not in the place they were supposed to be at that particular time. Divine intervention, maybe? How do you explain STIGMATA? Speaking in tongues? Big Bang Theory or Intelligent Design? All of these things cannot be explained away simply through science. And while you may think science PROVES that G-d does not exist, I, and many others believe science actually PROVES that G-d DOES exist. That science shows an intelligence behind the design of everything in the Universe. In order to drive this point home, there is one more argument to make. What is G-d?

Let me breakdown the misunderstanding of what G-d IS vs what G-d ISN’T. 

1. G-d is LOVE, G-d is not a LOVER.

2. G-d is COMPASSION, G-d is not a CODDLER.

3. G-d is TRUTH, G-d is not a CHARLATAN.

4. G-d is ONE, G-d is not an INDIVIDUAL.

5. G-d is EVERYTHING, G-d is not A THING.

Most importantly, G-d is a VERB, G-d is not a NOUN. G-d is an ACTION, a DOING, a KNOWING. G-d is not A THING, for a physical thing cannot contain the immense wholeness of the ONENESS of G-d. Because a physical thing denotes separateness, of which G-d (as a whole) is incapable. However, sparks of G-d can exist separately while maintaining connection in Oneness through the energy contained within. Because the energy is G-d. And energy without mass is not separate. It mixes all together and spreads itself out as far as it can reach. So in that, every THING that exists IS G-d manifested in a unique separateness from itself. And every THING experiences separately, while influencing every other THING through the connectedness of energy. Each THING connects to every THING around it, creating an endless flow of energy that stretches out beyond limited comprehension. Within that connection, that flow, lies G-d. 

So again, I ask the atheist, how do you explain it? More aptly, can you DISPROVE it? You are free to disagree and I won’t begrudge you that. But I dare challenge you to explain and/or disprove it. I say this not to start a fight, but a conversation. For we will never change our ways if we refuse to listen with an open mind and a compassionate heart. Just know, you will fail to sway me, though my mind is open, for I am strong in my faith with a deep understanding of it’s connection, it’s power and it’s Grace. I have personally witnessed said power AND Grace, which solidifies my understanding of those experiences. 

These lessons that I share come through my lived experiences and the difficulties I have endured. They come from pain and suffering, sorrow and loss, devastation and destruction, but mostly, they come from disillusionment and awakening. I think the most crucial of these lessons is also the most relevant. When something goes wrong, immediately start looking for the lesson. The faster you find it, the easier it is to work through and solve. Whenever you make a mistake, stop and ask yourself, “What am I supposed to learn here?” You may be surprised at how quickly the answer comes to you. Quite frankly, it’s usually not what you expect it to be. And many times the depth of the answer doesn’t come to you until well after you’ve had time to digest it and are calm and rational. If you start looking early and remain conscious through the process, the lesson organically appears, but do not ever expect it to be easy or comfortable. The greatest lessons we learn come from the most difficult and uncomfortable situations we experience. Some lessons will challenge you to your core while others seem so insignificant. Yet each lesson builds upon the one before, bringing an awareness, an awakening, if you will, allowing for growth and understanding. The more we grow, the more we understand. The more we understand, the better we live. The better we live, the more we contribute to society as a whole, which is the ultimate goal, RIGHT?! 

        See, it’s never about the individual, but the collective. But without the individual, the collective cannot exist. It’s a balancing act, a dance, carefully and consciously choreographed, to flow effortlessly and fluidly, all for the sake of gaining knowledge and wisdom so that G-d, in it’s Oneness can understand and experience individuality. I’ve believed for most of my life that the meaning of life is to experience merely for the sake of experience. For, if we are nothing when we die, what’s the point? Or, if we are born sinners, how can we ever reach the Glory of G-d? And why would we want to, when G-d is the One who deemed us sinners in the first place? See, these are the points where Atheism AND Christianity lose me. One says that we are nothing before we’re born and we return to nothing when we die, while the other says we were born of sin and will die in sin, and there is no way out of it. Both of these ideologies are so absolute and impossible that I’ve never been able to rationalize a belief in them. However, I respect their respective places and have continued to seek an understanding of faith and spirituality. 

        When I began my journey into my Judaism, I didn’t think I would find the answers that eluded me most of my life, but find them, I did. Well, to clarify, I found substantiation of what I have felt within all my life. I found an understanding and respect for the traditions and history of a people put to a seemingly impossible task. I found a humbleness in the practice and a longing to honor it, and those who came before me. לדור בדור from generation to generation, we will remember. It is in that connection to the past that we must return. So I must honor that impossible task to the best of my ability. To teach the RIGHT WAY, not because I say so, but because it is G-D’s WAY. It is not religion, it is LAW, NATURAL LAW. G-d’s Law has been under attack for far too long and yet still stands the test of time. When a hypothesis cannot be disproven, it becomes a theory. After a long period of time and it still cannot be disproven, it becomes law. That is the scientific method, yes? So G-d’s Law was a hypothesis for a long time and could not be disproven. Sure, man can still exist without G-d, but is it living or just mere existence? When an entire people live by the laws of G-d, the balanced ebb and flow becomes natural and seemingly effortless. To this day, G-d’s Law has not and cannot be disproven. I think after nearly 5800 years of documented history, G-d’s Law has been proven time and time again. It’s laughable that this is ignored.

        It has been thousands of years, disputing whether G-d exists and trivial fighting over which practice is right. The Truth, if you want to know, is every religion is absolutely right AND absolutely wrong. Because religion is nothing more than a way to practice your understanding of G-d. In that, they are all right. Where they go wrong is in their absoluteness of their superiority. G-d doesn’t care what name you use or how you practice, G-d cares that you call. Just like any parent, G-d is the ultimate Parent. G-d doesn’t smite, G-d teaches, through warning and consequence. G-d embraces and champions your successes and consoles and guides your missteps, even when the consequence is Karma. 

       Keep in mind, I am not proselytizing, as that goes against everything for which I stand. How someone honors G-d is a personal choice. G-d gave man the influence to create each one of them in their proper time and place, for G-d does not make mistakes. So each one is right. It is the Ego of man that convolutes and obscures the Truth of G-d. I use my Judaism merely as a basis for the importance of honoring a practice and a reminder of the task we were given. 

I don’t claim to have the answers, just wisdom. I don’t claim expertise, but mere experience. I don’t know everything, but I’ve learned a lot. I am no more important than the next guy (or gal), but my life has value. I’m not better than any other, but I’m better than I used to be. I do not know why I was ‘chosen”, but I will do my best to live up to the challenge placed before me. To teach G-d’s Laws, I must know them. To live them, I must trust them. To praise them, I must witness their TRUTH. Bish v’li nivra ha olam! Anochi afar v’afar! For my sake, the world was created! I am but dust and ash! I am everything and I am nothing. 

Stand Up

    Stand Out

     Be the Light

-Miriam the Levite

Magnum Opus

   It goes without saying that most people live their lives half asleep. So why did I just say it, if it “goes without saying”, you may wonder? Well, because, when you look at the current state of affairs worldwide, it’s quite evident a great number are starting to wake up. Interestingly, those who’ve been awake for a while and live life with eyes wide open, are finding that is no longer sustainable. Leaving behind the waking world for a higher conscious existence. Yet, within that, comes a certain understanding of the limitations of such an undertaking. For the higher consciousness does not sustain the body in which we are contained. Meaning, that we cannot “live” inside of the higher consciousness, only experience it for brief moments. It is in those brief moments where the true understanding of why we are here becomes clear. Unfortunately, they do not really translate into the physical realm, and therefore get “lost in translation”. Hence, the dichotomy exists, one foot in each world. The Yin in the Yang, and vice versa. No matter how much we may desire to live within that higher plane, the reality that we cannot, becomes greater than the desire, and we are forced back into this heaviness we call physical life, or the lower realm. While it may seem a futile goal to some, those who have experienced the higher realms understand the importance of them. See, the higher realms not only allow us to connect with Ein Sof (the One), they also allow for a detached observation of the lower realm. Bringing about a deeper understanding of why we exist in such a limited capacity. It is not enough to merely exist in the lower realm, though most people only achieve this level. It is ingrained into our very being to long for the higher realms, thus bringing a person to the questions of why we are here. And if the questions exist in this lower realm, why do so many scoff at the prospect of existence beyond? And if one experiences those higher realms, even if just for a moment, it then becomes real, yes? So, if those higher realms are real, why can we not “live” there? The answer isn’t what you would want to hear, but must accept. The higher realms exist beyond the physical existence. And since we are ensouled bodies and embodied souls, “living” in the higher realms becomes impossible while we still possess physical bodies. But, when we sleep, we can leave those bodies behind and exist within the higher realms. So, the question becomes, are we solid matter, or are we energy? Ah, the ultimate questions begin. Do we exist merely in physical form, or are we more than our bodies? Are we here to seek truth of knowledge, or are we just existing? These are the questions that have plagued me all my life. They are my impetus for my magnum opus, if you will. My desire to write great works that compel one to deep contemplation of the truth of why. 

State of Flux

 Where we are versus where we are supposed to be is the crux of our situation. We, meaning humanity, are in a perpetual state of flux, as it were, due to competing ideologies. These ideologies are not only competing, they are in stark contrast to each other and cannot, by nature, compromise. There is no reasoning with either side to come to an agreement for the sake of peace. No, both sides have their heels dug in deep and refuse to budge. And why should they? Both have very strong ideas of how humanity is to progress forward and both have grievances of the other side. So which one is right? That is the real question we need to answer. The truth is, neither side is right and neither side is wrong, because they are both right and they are both wrong. The problem has more to do with perceived power. When in reality, the power never belonged to any of us in the first place. Power, you see, is perceived to be the end goal for those who tend toward the ego, not the spirit, or essence of who we really are. For those who live in the essence of life understand the end goal is expansion. Power, stunts growth, expansion champions it. And growth isn’t about some “Great Reset”, growth is the natural progression of a free society. Growth is the end result of communities working together, yet allowing for individual freedom. Governance only works properly when done small and left to local municipalities. This is not a mutable nor debatable statement, it is truth. All one must do is look throughout history and notice the pattern of how empires rise and then fall. They fall because they get too big and can no longer adapt as quickly nor efficiently, thus creating a stagnating society. And as unfortunate as it is to say, the United States is at that point. 

  Remember, in order to grow, a society MUST acknowledge their own stagnation and consciously choose to change it. But that doesn’t mean dismantle it and rebuild. No, it means looking at what is of value and what can be thrown away. Community is valuable, identity politics is NOT! Acceptance is freeing, judgment is confining. Massive government has no ability or capacity to provide for all citizens, but small, community based governments do. 

  So where can we affect real change, and how? Find the things of intrinsic value to you and focus on those. Stop paying any attention to the things and people who devalue you and what you stand for. Stop giving your hard earned dollars to corporate oligarchs. Think local, act local, buy local. Grow your own food and share with your neighbors. Find out what they can trade or do for you. Band together with them, regardless of political affiliation (if there comes a day when we no longer have a government, or we’re at war, you’ll want to know who and what your neighbors are, for many reasons). Build valuable skills to contribute to your community, so you can all become self-sustaining. These elites cannot control the masses if the masses refuse to listen or fall in line.

FUBAR

   Everything is FUBARed! Our world is in such despair, not just here in the US, but worldwide. I’ve been writing about this revolution for over 30 years, yet no one knows because I’ve never published a single piece. Not for a lack of desire, nor passion, but simply because I chose to focus on other avenues of creativity and success. I spent years living with and around a group of people who, while well meaning, didn’t believe I could make a living as a writer or an artist. So I followed another passion and spent 25 years as a hairdresser. I am pretty good at it too, not that I’m tooting my own horn, my work speaks for itself. But I’m digressing. My whole point isn’t about my past, but my future, what that means for this world and the impact it can have on future generations. I’m not perfect by ANY stretch of the imagination, nor do I claim to have all the answers. I am merely a messenger. So please, don’t shoot me.    

  My messages come from another place, they are not me, for I am only human and these words are for the world. Only one powerful being can truly affect the change our world so desperately needs. So, without further adieu, I will begin the process of leaking out these messages as they come. Keep in mind, I am also working on a compilation of my writings for the last 30 years, so keep checking my community for updates on its progress.

  

  Back to the lecture at hand...

  We are FUBAR. Fucked Up Beyond All Repair! I don’t say this lightly, mind you, for I am an eternal optimist. Somewhat of a PollyAnna, if you will. But I don’t see the world through rose colored glasses. My ex husband used to say I didn’t ever see the bad things that happen in this world. Of course, he was wrong, and I’d be sure to tell him so every chance I got. I do see the Hell that we are living in, the Hell we came out of, and the Hell we are heading towards, but I choose to focus on the good, and how we can change our projected path. It’s not going to be easy, and there will be a great deal of pushback, but if we are to save some semblance of life, things MUST CHANGE. 

  It’s time to abandon the idea that we can live harmoniously under one government. It’s time we realize that the only way to protect life, the earth, and our prosperity is to keep our circles smaller. To support and prosper within our own communities. For example, there was a serious accident in my former town of Flagstaff over Memorial Day Weekend. A group of cyclists were riding in a parade down one of the main streets when a tow truck driver, who was on his phone, ran the red light and plowed into the group. Six were injured, 5 of which were serious. One woman succumbed to her injuries just 2 days later. It is a tragedy that has rocked Flagstaff to its core. But, the community has come together and nearly every small business in town has donated 100% of their proceeds to these families, along with a great number of it’s residents. Not a single one of the victims will have to worry about their medical bills or their incomes. No insurance company nor government could act as fast. No large organization of any kind would rally around this tragedy in support nearly as effectively as the grassroots community that is Flagstaff. Which brings me to my point. 

  Our local communities is where real change IS affected. We must stop relying on big companies, large federal governments and millionaires/billionaires for anything. None of them understand what it’s like to be an “average” citizen. None of them understand the plight of the working man. They are so far removed from the realities of real life that though they think they can come in, throw a bunch of money at something and everything will be fine, the truth is much more messy. So, they do what they can to keep themselves at the top and all of us under their thumb. But, the power they seem to think they have is only given to them because we allow it. The best way we can remove their power is to walk away from them and their money. To pool our own resources together and become bigger than they will ever hope to be. The GameStop and AMC stock stories are just a start. They may think they have power and influence, but it pails in comparison to millions of average citizens banding together to stop these greed-mongers from taking every last cent away from the working class. It’s the old story from the Big Book of David vs. Goliath. Yet, we are also in the midst of Sodom and Gomorrah as well. Just take a moment to assess, I’ll wait. You got it? Good. Because I don’t feel the need to get into the depths of either story. Suffice to say, we are in the midst of G-d’s judgment. And I take no pleasure in saying it. What I can take pleasure in saying, however, is that millions are waking up to this truth. And in that, humanity can and WILL survive. But just what will that look like? Some postulate it will look like the top .01% ruling over everyone. But they would be wrong.

  What life will look like in just 5 years has yet to be determined, but it will NOT look anything like what those “in power” plan. See, in order for their plan to succeed, they need a submissive population. They need people to need them. And the lot of us are starting to realize that we don’t. We, as a whole, are starting to see the truth behind their wicked lies, their blatant deceptions and their sinful ways. No, life in 5 years will NOT look like what they plan. Life will be freedom and prosperity. Life will be smaller communities that rely on each other. Building strength within community and reliance upon our neighbors. It is already happening right now in the move away from the big cities. A mass migration back to less congestion, less noise, less hustle and bustle. We see it in the real estate market, as well as the job sector. People are moving away from dependent communities and work and opting for a more autonomous existence. 

  It is the “thing” that will fundamentally transform the way we live, work, interact and grow. In this movement, which is the natural consequence of one power forcing itself upon the masses, we will “get back” to the way we were always supposed to live in the first place. In balance and harmony with the plant and animal world. We have forgotten that we are not the only ones inhabiting this space on the planet and we are not the authority on how life should exist, for we are only 1/3 of the life on earth. 

  And before you go rolling your eyes, thinking I’m some kind of environmentalist, let me say this, I do not believe in global warming as the narrative frames. I do not believe it is man caused, nor do I believe we can do anything to stop it. It is hubris to believe 1/3 of the life on this planet can effect such a devastating crisis of this magnitude, short of a nuclear holocaust. It isn’t convenient to speak of the truth that our planet is merely going through it’s natural cycle of heating and cooling. If you look at the geology of the past, along with astronomical charts, with a basic understanding of how the universe is in constant motion, you can see that the earth is merely shifting on it’s axis, which causes icecaps to melt, droughts, floods, fires, you get the idea. There is actually documentation in the past of this happening. The popular story is that of Noah’s flood, but in truth, there are over 800 mythologies from around the world of the Great Flood. According to the research done by Graham Hancock and others, this cycle is about 14,000 years long and the archaeological evidence of said Flood dates back about 14,000 years. Coincidence? So, no, I am not an environmentalist, but rather a naturalist and realist. The soil is depleted, the oceans too salty and the air is too thick with particulates. It’s time, the reality here is that the earth is due for a massive cleansing.

  In that realism, it is easy to see that the destruction before us is inevitable. Yet, there is always a silver lining. Just like a forest that’s been devastated by fire, life will always find a way to return, and so will humanity. We will thrive in ways not imagined before, simply due to necessity being the mother of all invention, and adaptation being the true definition of survival of the fittest. 

  In truth, humanity is the master of adaptation. We’ve made it through multiple plagues, wars, famines, and natural disasters, to come out stronger, more capable and resilient. What makes anyone think we are headed for doom? To put it simply, fear. 

  Fear is the emotion of uncertainty. Fear is the driver of bad decisions. Fear is the thing that keeps you frozen and unable to move. It is the one thing that truly holds someone back and prevents them from reaching their true potential. Yet it can also serve as the greatest motivator to propel you forward. And for those who become frozen in the face of fear, this may well be the end. For those who allow fear to ignite their souls, survival and the ability to thrive, despite the circumstance, become the only path. From the ashes, the Phoenix rises. 

  So the real questions you must ask yourself, 

Does your fear have you, or do you have it?

When the time comes will you stand in strength or crumble in fear?     

Be well everyone, and remember,

Stand Up

        Stand Out

                Be the Light!

-MiriamtheLevite 

Light Workers

  In today’s ever changing landscape, it’s hard to know who you can trust. Everyone seems to be talking out of both sides of their mouths, yet saying very little that has any intrinsic value. 

One trend I’ve noticed lately, those who speak truth come from all walks of life, but one shared thread is Faith. Let’s define them as Light Workers. A Light Worker is one who has connected to The One (in Hebrew, Ein Sof, Source of All Creation), allowing the signs and messages to freely flow through them to invoke the spiritual awakening in which we are experiencing. I am one of them, and it’s taken me decades to come to terms with it. It is the humblest of honors, and I don’t take it lightly.

We don’t all share the same anything, really, but we do understand the great importance of being and staying connected to Ein Sof. It’s something that comes with conscious awareness and understanding just how each one of us affect the world in which we live. We have been brought here, in this space and time, to affect such change, to usher in the expansion of the human existence. 

The natural progression of Humanity cannot be avoided or brushed off, just because it’s icky. In Judaism, its called the coming of Moshiach, in Christianity, it’s the Messiah. In truth, it’s not a person at all. It is redemption. It is waking from the dream of contradictory reality. Waking from the utter nonsense that has become our world and understanding the truth of existence. Light Workers are those who will guide this transition, and many of us seem such unlikely “prophets”. But the reality we must remember, when we look back upon history, some of the greatest influencers have been pretty salty characters. Anyone ever read the book Illusions-The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah, by Richard Bach? See, a Light Worker isn’t defined by the righteousness of the path they are set upon. They are defined by their truth, their wisdom, their understanding. All of which are not gifted in a pretty little box with a bow on top. No, truth, wisdom and understanding come from great adversity. That adversity brings about uncomfortable growth, which in turn brings about an opening of the mind into a greater story than could ever be told, for no one would believe them. Which in turn forces them to seek that truth, that wisdom, that understanding.

Light Workers, understand the 5 levels of the soul, as defined by Kabbalah (even if someone doesn’t know Kabbalah, on a certain level, they understand this). These 5 levels pertain to the connection with and understanding of Ein Sof-

1. Nefesh- Physical Body- your actions
2. Ruach- Emotional Self- your feelings
3. Neshamah- Mental Self- your knowing
4. Chayah-Spiritual Self- your “being”
5. Yechidah- Transcendental Self- when you transcend the “being”

Each level requires an awareness and connection to the self, not as a being, limited in its physicality, but as a soul that is limitless and eternal in it’s light, its מאד m’od (muchness). Each level builds upon the one before, bringing you closer to Ein Sof and forever out of the dream. But, because we are so very limited within our physical bodies, reaching Yechidah and staying there is near improbable. The irony, however, is that when we are actually asleep, our souls can detach, and often do, from our bodies in order to exist in the true reality, but what we believe in the waking world to be the dream. Wait, what did I just say? The true reality is what we understand to be the dream (?) and what we perceive to be reality is in actuality, the dream????

YES!!!!! A thousand times over, YES!!!!!

Light Workers, on one level of the soul or another, understand this and are so very connected, they can see through the veil of what we believe to be the reality of existence. We come from ALL walks of life. We have been through our own adversities and challenges to come away with an understanding of what it was all for and why we are here now. We get it! Many cannot express it in such terms, but on some level, they are doing their part to affect this change. While others are blessed with the ability to translate this understanding to the masses in such a way that their impact is far greater. Ultimately, it matters not, for Moshiach is coming and when it arrives, the Light Workers of the world will rise up to comfort those who are just waking from the dream and trying to comprehend this truth. No one way is better or more powerful than another, for once the age of Moshiach has past, there will be no war, hunger, greed, competion, etc...

I will put out this one caution, it’s going to get worse before it gets better. What we all need to do is keep our wits about us, keep speaking and standing up for TRUTH and stay grounded within it. The battle has just begun and we are stronger than the evil forces that are attempting to tear it all down now. Our advantage here is that those who seek to destroy, underestimate those who fight for TRUTH. At the end of this very uncomfortable time, after the Age of Moshiach, we will live balanced within ourselves, our world and our soul. We are entering to the Age of Enlightenment, where all will understand and be connected to Ein Sof. It isn’t going to be easy for some to come to the TRUTH that G-d does exist and ALL that IS, is G-d, and that each of us, are merely a spark of the ONENESS, but together, WE are G-d. And that his more POWERFUL than any evil force could attempt to imagine. 

Chag Pesach!

Stand Up

Stand Out

Be the Light!

-Miriam-

Standing In Grace

     Recently on a trip back to my hometown, I took the opportunity to allow myself to be fully conscious and present in the experience. It’s taken me a bit to truly step into understanding all that the experience gave me, but I think I got it. Forgive me if this gets too convoluted. 

    For the first time in my life, I saw the city I grew up in for what it really is, not for what I perceived. I saw the memories of my childhood play out in front of me like they were on the Big Screen. I walked the paths of my parents and my grandparents through the city they loved so much; the very one I loathed and despised for nearly 30 years. The one that chewed me up and spit me back out time and time again those first 18 years. I decided that it was time to let go of those old feelings. Time to let go of the past, the pain, the disappointments, the resistance, and to embrace the beauty that is my history. To see it objectively and yield myself to its Grace.

    Los Angeles, the City of Angels. To some, it’s a dream come true to bask in the warmth of its Light. To others, like me, it’s Light isn’t warm enough. The line from Pretty Woman, “Welcome to Hollywood, what’s your dream? Everybody that comes to Hollywood has a dream”, always struck me as so very superficial. I just couldn’t connect with anything LA had to offer, and so, at 18, I left. I didn’t look back once, even when I knew I could aways go home. It just was not an option. Yet, no matter how far I ran, LA was always with me, chasing after me like some lost puppy seeking acceptance and love. Every time I went back, it was like a huge weight was placed upon my shoulders, dragging me down until I left. Never felt comfortable there, always feeling like I was being sized up and judged as not good enough. Yet, there was always an affinity to my connection with “home”.

    I don’t know exactly when my attitude toward the city changed, but I do know that one day, I just stopped hating it. One day, I just saw it as another city. No connection, no affection, no nothing. And though, having no feeling may seem, to some, as no big deal, to me, it was. Most of my adult life, I’ve had to defend that though I grew up there, when I had the chance to leave, I did. In 1991, when I was packing to move to Lake Powell, I knew I’d leave behind family, friends and memories, and I was good with that. I was good with walking away from all the swill that tried taking me down. Good with never looking back, knowing that where I grew up didn’t define me. Oh, how very wrong I was. Growing up in LA does define you. It defines you in ways that you don’t understand until many years later. And when you look back, you realize that it was a blessing and a curse. The phrase, “You can take the girl out of (insert anything, in this case LA), but you can’t take LA out of the girl”, used to always bother me, because I never saw myself as an LA Girl, or even a Valley Girl. I spent so much time running away from it, that I never saw the beauty in how it defined me. 

    With everything going on in the world right now, all the hate, all the anger, the cancel culture, etc; my experiences growing up in LA being who I am, prepared me for this. I am not surprised, for I have seen the worst of humanity directed at me. I have experienced some pretty deep traumas, most of which perpetuated because of the very energy I gave to them. I own that. I’m not proud of the role I played in my own pain, but I survived, and I learned what it means to be resilient. And while there are definitely people in this world who’ve experienced far more painful traumas than my own, the psychological damage runs along the same lines. Though I have no idea what it’s like to go through any type of actual physical torture, war, poverty, etc, I do know what it’s like to be abused on multiple levels. And I know just how damaging trauma can be. Spent years wondering why these things kept happening to me. It was only when I decided I had reached my breaking point and sought trusted counsel, that I began to see not only the why, but the how. And I sat with that, for a long time. It wasn’t an easy pill to swallow and it hurt going down for sure. But as it digested into my being and settled, where it would, near my soul, a veil lifted and I began to see this whole theatre play out in front of me. 

    I understood it was never the city that chewed me up and spit me back out, it was only myself. The city was what made me resilient. The city was what made me tough. The city was what made me creative, bold, expressive. It made me appreciate the finer things in life, as well as all the rough around the edges stuff. It gave me a glimpse into humanity from virtually every angle and allowed me to observe human behavior in a way I don’t think I’d have been able living anywhere else. 

    For the first time in my nearly 48 yrs of life, I saw Los Angeles from the perspective of bittersweet nostalgia. And I saw the beauty that still exists there amongst the grime and the desperation. I saw the people with their generosity and kindness and laid back attitude, with a touch of Hollywood arrogance. I saw the history of the ones who built Los Angeles from their eyes. I saw the Los Angeles of the days gone by, and the people who hope to bring that feeling back. I saw the beauty of her landscape, her soft rolling hills covered in green and the palm tree lined streets that are so very famous. I felt the heart and soul of a city begging for forgiveness, longing to be loved again. For the first time, I felt connected to my home and I stand now, humbly in her Grace. For she made me who I am. With every scar, every tear, every joy, Los Angeles is my home.

       

    

Revelation of Truth

    Is it enough to have a strong faith when faced with such visceral hate? Is it enough to TRUST in G-d, yet remain silent? Is it enough to teach only your children the Moral Code? The answer to all of these questions is simply, NO. It’s not enough to have faith, a belief in G-d, or to teach your children, not anymore. No, we must stand up, speak up, be louder than the loudest bullhorn against the radical ideology that is plaguing our country, our society, pushing against our very way of life. 

  It isn’t enough to just hold these values. It isn’t enough to teach them only to our children. Our world needs these lessons. Humanity is, after all, beautifully flawed. We come here to experience, to grow, to expand. Yet how can we, when the very foundation upon which we exist is not only threatened, it is being destroyed? How can we protect, preserve and strengthen these foundations simply by living right and teaching our children? We can’t. At least not for the present. See, living right, teaching our children, lays the foundation for the future, but it will all be for not, if we cannot secure the present. So how do we do that?

   The answer seems simple, in concept, yet difficult when put to practice. Meet Hate with Love, shine the Light in the Darkest corners. That’s it. The only way we are going to “White Pill” anyone successfully is to meet their hate and anger and entitled attitude with Love & Light. It begins by teaching not just accountability, but intentionality as well. Which is to say that not only must we be accountable for our actions, but we must think BEFORE we act, just where our intentions lie. We must always be conscious in that intention not just in the moment, but into the future. So, the question is, how do you change how someone thinks? 

   It requires a great deal of patience and compassion to help reshape the way someone thinks. It starts with posing questions that challenge their core beliefs. As you begin to open their minds, replacing those toxic core beliefs with values and morality, they will see that it can actually uplift not only them, but their community as a whole. And while it may seem a futile exercise, I assure you it is not. The key is to challenge minor beliefs first. By posing a different take on a situation, one can begin to see that there is more than one perspective. From there, expanding upon a new awareness of differing perspectives, one can broaden their own understanding of themselves within the world they have created. The next step is to guide them to see that each and every one of us live within those worlds we create and thus, reality is not the same for everyone. That’s when the “Ah-ha” moments begin to happen. From there, it’s just a matter of allowing them the time to process and absorb, in a way that makes sense for them. 

   Welcome to the grieving process, which for some, is more difficult than the revelation of truth. They may fight against the feelings of anger, not wanting to trust that their own belief system was toxic and viscerally charged. Or they may deny this “new” reality, which is actually not new at all. They may get stuck bargaining with their own thoughts about the truth that has been revealed. It could be that depression overwhelms them and they feel as though nothing good can ever come from this truth. In the end, acceptance washes over them and they begin to come out of this vicious thought cycle that perpetuates not only negativity but judgement as well. For one cannot live in lies once they understand the truth. 

   Once you begin to live in truth, it becomes natural to stand in accountability, but not necessarily in intentionality. For that, one must be consciously thinking through their actions before they actually act. In order to understand what that looks like, first, we must understand what intentionality is. As defined, pertaining to the capacity of the mind to refer to an existent or nonexistent object, the state of a person’s mind that directs his or her actions towards a specific object. 

   It isn’t enough to simply intend to do good. Most people intend to do good, yet fail to understand the consequences of their own actions. Most people think that just because they believe one thing to be right, everyone MUST believe the same. But, when we open our minds to full capacity, we can see multiple perspectives and endless possibilities. In that, we can see the potential of what we intend and how it may play out. Which allows us the ability to consciously move through our actions with the knowledge that we are justly intentioned and accountable. And when one is conscious, accountable and intentional, their actions are pure. That purity IS TRUTH. And that truth is never forced or coerced. It is organic in nature simply due to it’s own purity. For when we see the endless possibilities, we see exactly how to move through any situation conscious to every potential outcome, thus giving us a path of clarity and focus to allow for the best possible outcome.

   However, just because someone is conscious in their intentions doesn’t mean the outcome is always favorable. There may come a time when you realize that no matter what you do, the result you want isn’t possible. Those are the moments that try your intentionality the most. For example, I have, many times, intended to help someone through a very difficult and trying time in their life, only to be met with absolute resistance and hatred. See, just because someone comes to me seeking guidance doesn’t always mean they are ready for it. Once I realize their resistance, I tend to challenge them to see if they are actually serious. Most of the time, they are not and I am forced to walk away. So, my intention to help guide them never comes to fruition, but my consciousness allows me to accept that truth and move on. It’s only when we refuse to accept truth that we attempt to force our ways upon others. Which, of course, begets resentment and anger, thus, the vicious cycle of toxic thoughts continue. 

   So the challenge then becomes an internal one to face the very foundation of the need to be right. Accepting truth often means admitting we were wrong about something, we followed the wrong path, or trusted in the wrong ideas. That is a huge blow to the ego, especially if your ego is the driving force. And in this world, ego is everything. 

   It’s time to smash the illusion that our egos have anything to do with truth.  Because in reality, truth exists beyond the realm or capacity of the ego. And the ego does everything it can to convince you otherwise. The ego wants you to to believe that it alone knows what’s right and will push back against anything that gets in it’s way.

   Funny thing about the ego, it only holds as much power has you consciously allow, proving it’s actually not the one in control. So, if the ego isn’t in control, then the illusion ceases to be perceived as reality, and truth reveals itself fluidly. When the veils of perception are lifted, truth is revealed and infinite existence is understood. Which allows one to realize that all that is negative, all that is hateful, all that is evil comes solely from ego. And in that realization, spirit arises within and encourages the soul to propel forward in truth and understanding. Accepting that each soul, each individual is on this journey together, yet all alone. And to cause harm to another is to cause harm to the self. 

   So, again, I ask, is it enough to simply have Faith? To have belief in G-d and to teach that to our children? No. We must open hearts, open minds and allow for open discourse. We must meet Hate with Love, Darkness with Light, and Deceit with Truth. 

It’s time to Stand Up

                      Stand Out

                        Be the Light

Miriam